Change.. Every year, literally every year, I vow to change. Change myself, my life, the way I deal with people, just change everything! What usually happens is, I change for that moment. As soon as I sleep on it, I tend to forget all the ways I was going to make myself a better person.
To be honest, change is just not that easy!
You have to want it, have a drive for it, engage in it, and in my case, you have to remember it-tomorrow. I know that sounds horrible, but hey I was a single mother, running my own business, raising two children! Life's daily routines are hard to break!
According to the internet, the definition of change is to make or become different, to take and use another instead of.
After years and years of poor decision making, putting others before myself, caring to DAMN much about things that I could not control, a light bulb went off. I had to CHANGE THE WAY I THINK, my mind, my thought process.
See that makes a lot more sense, because until I can change that, I was going to continue to be stuck on this roller coaster of wanting to change. I had to change the way I think about things, people and situations-PERIOD!
Yes, now I see, change is not easy, but it can be achieved.
Do not give up! If you want to change, you may have to do somethings that feel uncomfortable. You may have to do things that your peers do not do, maybe take some roads that no one is on.
In the process, you will learn to love your self, maybe even learn that YOU are your own best friend. If you stick with it, heck you may get some peace out of it. You never know what is in store for the NEW YOU!